Well, that's a funny song, 50% appropriate, but no, it's really all about me.
It took me some time to realize some of my perception of myself was wrong. Not wrong-wrong, just outdated.
I lived with the impression I was alone because men slipped away. My previous post made me see very clearly that I ended all my significant relationships. Me, not them. The only men who slipped away were the ones I had one night stands with. I believed I was alone because no man bothered to walk the extra mile. Partially true; I am hasty and impulsive and I want everything NOW. They were probably walking that extra mile but I simply didn't have the patience to wait for them or adjust to their pace, who knows.
I still perceived myself as shy. Truth be told, I did a couple of things that could be classified as anything but shy. When I desire something, or someone, I go for it full steam ahead, giving it a try, so that I don't waste any more sleep than I normally do wondering "what if". This way I only toss and turn wondering "what the fuck..."
As for being a recluse, that is also partially true. I'd rather be alone that with people I have nothing in common with, people I don't fell "hell yeah" about, people that don't provoke me at any level. And even those can prove disappointing sometimes. It took some of them months or even years to say something about the way they were feeling about me. It gets irritating to be the only one speaking my mind, even at the risk of embarrassing myself. I am no longer filling in the blanks here. Speak now, or forever hold your penis...